Dec. 30th 2008

Feel like shit today.
I got up and made myself a HUGE breakfast. Watched The Seven Year Itch (Classic) while I ate.
Went into work…didn’t work. However, I got to see Trish’s dog Rosie Barks. She is getting big!
Got back home and I feel even worse.
I think I have the flu.

Love and Hot Dogs,

Roots Ganja.

Dec. 29th 2008

Went out with the roommate to Northside TAVERN (caps cause some thought I was at Northside Hospital). Saw a great band there. The guitarist looked like a cross between Jerry Garcia and Santa Claus, and the keyboardist looked like a janitor for an elementary school. My friend Moe was there and her beer told a joke (don’t ask).

Afterwards, went to Trackside then home to watch The Kid Stays in the Picture 9get flick and better book). Then, I fell asleep to Godfather 2. Ribs!

Love and Hot Dogs,

Roots Ganja.

"Tell it, Forrest. Tell it."

A Change is Gonna Come.
-Sam Cooke.

Adele

This woman may have saved my life.

God Bless You, David Lynch

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May you live forever.

!PANIC ATTACK!

Like a bolt of pain, it comes!
Raising from the deepest fear. A snake attacking it's prey.
It takes control quicker then any rush I've felt before.
It's like, a madman is at the wheel of a twisted beast!
All Is Negative.
Joy does not live here...only hurt and hate.
The body shakes and hums from the bottom.
Stop it, stop it! This is ridiculous. No man should act this way.
Blackness.
Pain.
But, then it is gone.
Breath comes back. Sky, air. The rest of the world is back around me.
I feel clear. Calm.
Such panic is so soul crushing.
But, we can take it. Learn from it. Tell it, we are not afraid of it.

This Is Just

On these slow, sad, mad days I think of friends. The ones I have and the ones who are now gone. Some have died (violently), while others are slowing drifting away. Moving on their own journey.
Filling their voids with those I cannot be. I don't want to be.
I makes me so sad. Sad I cannot give what they need.
All good things...
These slow, sad, mad days will bring the beginning and the end back together.
The circle controls us through all our days. We cannot go forward without going back.
Constanly trying to learn from all our mistakes.
These days.